Blog by Sumana Harihareswara, Changeset founder

20 Nov 2001, 22:57 p.m.

It's almost 11pm. I should turn in as I…

Hi, reader. I wrote this in 2001 and it's now more than five years old. So it may be very out of date; the world, and I, have changed a lot since I wrote it! I'm keeping this up for historical archive purposes, but the me of today may 100% disagree with what I said then. I rarely edit posts after publishing them, but if I do, I usually leave a note in italics to mark the edit and the reason. If this post is particularly offensive or breaches someone's privacy, please contact me.

It's almost 11pm. I should turn in as I have a busy day tomorrow: handball, Russian, Russian history, research in the Business/Econ and main libraries, and television-socializing in the evening. So many of my friends have already left for Thanksgiving holidays; I already miss Jeana, for example.

This mundane, "to-do list" entry does not rise to my usual standards but (to launch into another weblog trope, the 'whine') I'm low on cash, I'm tired, my place is a mess, I didn't accomplish most of what I wanted to do tonight (cleaning and Russian), I do not anticipate great happiness in my Thanksgiving "holiday," I have to write a ten-page paper by next Thursday, I need to get cracking on my work-research, I've barely seen most of my friends this week, I'm behind in all my reading, and I'm saddled with this sense of maturity and mortality that's worse than melancholy, just a burden of death that I'm too busy to examine.

Maybe I'll feel better if I can just do some Russian exercises for tomorrow. Keep a constructive momentum going.