Blog by Sumana Harihareswara, Changeset founder

23 Apr 2002, 23:13 p.m.

Yesterday Leonard's sister, Susanna, returned to the USA after a sojourn…

Hi, reader. I wrote this in 2002 and it's now more than five years old. So it may be very out of date; the world, and I, have changed a lot since I wrote it! I'm keeping this up for historical archive purposes, but the me of today may 100% disagree with what I said then. I rarely edit posts after publishing them, but if I do, I usually leave a note in italics to mark the edit and the reason. If this post is particularly offensive or breaches someone's privacy, please contact me.

Yesterday Leonard's sister, Susanna, returned to the USA after a sojourn in Romania. She greeted her uncle with emotion, and she and Leonard and I called Frances (mother of Susanna and Leonard) to wish her a happy birthday. And they all seemed quite happy.

I felt a longing for family and home at the same time that I knew quite well that I don't have a place to call home, to imagine as home, and that I don't have a family that I can greet with joy.

I yearn for a place and a family that don't exist, so I run the risk of looking my whole life for this mythical construct and never finding it and never feeling satisfied. Argh!